The Reconcilement

Harapanku, yuk, jadi lebihh ayok lagi dalam hidup. Jangan banyak mikir, jangan banyak takut, ayok, berani, ambil tindakan. Coba banyak hal, hadapi segala perasaan enak, ga enak, sedih, senang, tertawa, bertemu, berpisah.

Itu semua cuma soal giliran.

The Light Side

I wonder, what kind of life will I have for another 30 years? Or 10 years? Or 5 years?

Seems like I still have a bunch of time to explore, face the uncertainties, meet strangers and people, and try a lot of new things.

Yeah, there are so many things you haven't tried yet.

You are still young, and free. Enjoy your time, leave no disappointment.

Welcoming The 5th of July

Why does it feel so scary?

In no time, I'm gonna be showered by my mother's prayer.

Well, just like she always does.

Anyways, today I drank two glasses of PointCoffee's Don't Hate Monday. The first glass was an iced dolce served by the female barista. The second glass was a tall matcha latte served by the male barista whom I thought had a kind of buzz feeling for me.

A couple of times I came there alone, and he asked,

"Kok sendirian aja?"

"Temennya ga diajak?"

Yeah, it's me so shallow and takes it so damn seriously. While he meant it only for the sake of increasing his selling portions. Hahaha.

After all this time, I'm still a romantic hopeless I guess.

I should stop at the first order, but I saw him and this imaginary friend-relationship forced me to go for the second menu.

And my blood filled with sugar and caffeine, and it kept me awake. Until now.

00.10

And here I am, writing this special post with an eerie feeling welcoming my 30th.

And I cried. And it's okay. And it counted as an honest way to embrace my.. darkness.

I'm so scared. It hit differently than last year.